Just Wait.

I started this blog last summer hoping to journal some of my thoughts for friends to see and check up on how my life was after freshmen year of college. After three posts, I got carried away with my summer and never returned to the blog. My title was "Perpetual Motion," and I mainly whined about how my summer was rotten due to unemployment, monotony, blah blah blah. Today, I decided to return. I first noticed I actually had pageviews, then I changed the title and deleted my first three posts. They were my past. I have grown so much since freshman year. Stronger relationships, a steady job, and a little dash of hope for the future. This next Tuesday, May 1, I begin a summer internship with the Springfield Cardinals minor league baseball team. Working in the sports media, baseball especially, is my dream. Through this internship, I'll see what happens behind the words of articles and press releases. It will be a time for me to grow. I need that growth for my upcoming job as managing editor for our university newspaper. This will be my first leadership role outside of class projects. I am excited, but mainly nervous because I don't feel qualified to do it. I wanted sports editor, but this opportunity appeared on a silver platter. In some ways, I do not deserve these two opportunities because they seemed too easy to obtain. Finding out and receiving the internship happend during three days over spring break. For managing editor, I applied because no one else did, and I was notified that I would have an interview about three days before. One principle that I have learned from these experiences is God does everything according to his plan and timing. If someone would have told me last year that I would be managing a newspaper and interning with a baseball team, I would not believe them at all. My past failed job attempts do not matter now. I had to go through them to get to this point. So if you are sitting there reading this and wondering why it sucks and why the future looks grim, just remember that it needs to happen. You need to go through challenges. You need to fail at things. If you don't fail and don't question your life, you cannot grow. I have gone through a lot of growing this semester, and I am surely not done yet. I still have about 95% more to go until I am somewhat mature. I do know that even though failures happen, this does not mean that you ARE a failure. God would not create you to be a failure. You have a plan even if it seems ten miles down the road. Just wait. Just wait.